okehh lets first see this pic i took.
this is IZZAT aka Bushman. it took such incredible photography skills from me to capture this picture.
haha, alright let's update the week.
_ I didnt turn up for my presentation and im dead sure im gonna flunk badly for this module.
dont fucking care about school anyway.
and lets talk about my fucked up mum.
who would want to have a mum who doesnt response to your greetings from school,work etc.?
who would want a mum who only treats you good when you stuff wads of money into her mouth?
who would want a mum to have a grudge on you since you were 8?
who would want a mum to have said to you that she wont mind losing one child?
who would want a mum who will ask you to pay double if you lend some money from her?
who would want a mum who keeps empty promises?
and who would want a mum like mine?!
and im stupid enough to worry for her so much that i give half of my monthly salary to her so that she can keep up with the monthly expenses.
and i was so emo last weekend that i kept myself out from home.
Its just so unfair to be treated differently from my other siblings. They got so much care and concern while i have to iron my own shirt, give myself my own pocket money, well basically I'm like a stranger in the house who pays 300$ every month to the owner for letting me have shelter and lodgings.
I dont know whether its fate or just dumbfuck luck to have be borned into this family.
well sometimes i feel like killing myself but i didnt mean to. I mean why, when u can party,smoke,eat,smile,laugh and other means to be happy? its just like what izzat told me, 'kau kurang kasih sayang'.
yeah i need love and the only love im getting now from my friends.
okay okay i need to smoke now. ciao.
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